JJ and I were arguing on the phone today, at one point we were yelling so much that he actually hung up the phone on me (which by the way infuriates me). I hate to fight with JJ, we dont do it very often maybe once or twice a year at the most, but when we do fight and argue they are doosies. Anyways, we were arguing over the phone about some things that had been happening with the kids recently ( that is another blog in itself ) We were on the phone because JJ is on the road. Maybe once every couple of months he has to go out on an overnight or sometimes week long run, other than that he is usually home every night. This morning he left for Iowa and wont be back until Saturday. I hate it when JJ is gone, I love having him home with me, I love every minute we get to spend together so when he does have to leave it makes my heart ache. ( I know that sounds mushy and immature, but it's true)
Any who....Some where during the argument I just started flipping out about nobody understanding how I feel, and nobody caring about my life outside of the house. It was weird, Why these words started coming out of my mouth is beyond me and then it hit me. Everybody know's me as JJ's wife or Jordan, Trevor, and Quaides mom. I realized that somewhere along the way I lost me and my personal identity. Dont get me wrong, I love being JJ's wife and I love being the boys mom but Ive come to the conclusion that I also need to be able to be Joanna every once in awhile.
JJ, being the awesome husband that he is, understood what I was saying for the most part, and after all the yelling and a few tears he and I made up.

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